Some knock outs are hard to take. Tonight I entered 2 tournys.

The first a $55 buy in, $15,000 guaranteed. I played exactly 2 hands in 30 minutes.

Hand 1 - I pick up KK in the button. Blinds are 10/20. Seat 3 raises to 40. Folded to me. I re-raise to 100, SB, BB call, seat 3 raises to $420. I call as do SB and BB. Flop A Q 8. Checked to seat 3 who bets $420. I fold - I think he has trip aces or queens. I am squeezed anyway, so fold.

10 minutes later. Blinds 15/30. I get 10 10 in the button. 2 limpers. I raise to 180 - SB, BB and 2 limpers call. Flop J 10 8 all clubs. Checked to me, I bet the pot folds round to final limper who goes all in. I am probably beat but have about 400 left so call - he has Q9 clubs for the straight flush.

Tourny 2 $69 +6. 226 entries - so prize pool is $16,000.

Down to 35 (pays 27). Blinds 200/400/50 I get AsQs in the SB. Folded to me. I min raise to 800. BB goes all in for 8000 more - he has me covered by 200. I call. He has 44. Flop A Q 4 and I am out in 35th.

Unbelievable. I really had the final table feeling - top 5 paid $1000+.

Instead bank roll is crippled - tonight was a desperate shot at trying to resurrect the month. It failed.

Balance of $777.

And on another note: Mr Clarke of Waterlooville, Hampshire you are a pathetic little agoraphobic wanker.